Awkward, brief, and nothing like what films had prepared me for. But I was with someone I trusted completely and that made all the difference. Wish someone had told me it gets dramatically better.
Mine was with an older girl who was patient and kind about the whole thing. I was extremely nervous and she made it feel genuinely okay to not know what I was doing. Lucky to have had that experience.
Very underwhelming in the moment, very significant in hindsight. I think I expected fireworks and got nervous fumbling instead. Now I understand the fireworks come much later once you actually know each other.
I wish someone had told me that it's completely fine if it's not special or profound. It can just be a thing that happens, and that's okay. The pressure to make it meaningful added unnecessary anxiety.
